Bryan & Brittney Austin

Sorry that I have literally sucked at updating this blog lately. I have not been able to take any pictures and life has been a little crazy the past few weeks. We had our last show in Bozeman, MT for the equestrian team for the year. It was a blast. I only got to ride once on Sunday but it was still fun. Everyone on the team is so much fun to be around and I have been able to make some good friends. I took 5th in my class. I felt like my ride though, was awesome. That was seriously the best ride I have had yet. I feel like I have improved some since joining the team and learning a little more horse control, balance, and leg strength that it is becoming more natural for me to ride English saddle. I have loved it. I am excited for the next semester as well. It will be interesting and I have more classes that are animal based which will be more fascinating to me. I still have to take the second semester of organic chemistry and physics which sucks but I also get to take animal anatomy and physiology (which I have already passed with flying colors human anatomy and physiology, so I have a good system down for those subjects), sheep/ovine production, and hopefully if I can add it a horse health course which would be awesome and give a total of 17 credit hours next semester as well. Also I will get to ride more with the team too so it will be fun. I am definitely looking forward to the break though. Finals are next week and needless to say Bryan and I are starting to cram and stress out to prepare for the exams. Bryan has done great this semester in making sure that all of his assignments have gotten turned in and studying for his exams. I am so proud of my husband. He has stepped it up a lot in the school department and I am so happy to be with him. He is so great to me even when he keeps me up until 2 am helping him with a paper he needed help writing. He is trying so hard and I can see it. I hate so much being away from him and it will be so nice to have three weeks with him. Assuming I survive the next week okay. I have my organic chemistry final and physics final on the same day one right after the other. It is starting to stress me out a little at this point. Those are my two more intensive courses this semester and it is hard to make such a huge transition in just ten minutes. We will see how I do and all I can do is my best. I am excited for Christmas but not so much my birthday. I will be 26 on Christmas day and it is a little weird to think I am closer to 30 now than 20. Time flies when you are happy. That is right I am happy. I know that I am sad all the time while I am away from Bryan but I love being with him and how supportive him and my family are and I could not ask for more. I feel like my life has more meaning and everyday I love them all more and more. Darcy is expecting and her belly is starting to get bigger. I cannot wait to find out what she is having. Her and Danny are just stringing us along and waiting until he last minute to find out what they are having which is silly because I would so buy the baby Fisher a Christmas gift if I could. I guess I will just have to wait. I wish so badly that Bryan and I could start our own family but with finances tight and me living in Logan and Bryan in Salt Lake, it would not be wise to start now. I cannot wait to though. I think about it all the time and I want to be a mom so bad. Just to have such a blessing in our lives. We are so happy I know a little bundle of joy would complete the happiness. Well I will update on how we do on our finals when grades post.

So Montana was good but a little disappointing for the equestrian team trip. I have made it a goal to try and improve at each show to place better in the show from the previous one, have better rides, and learn new things. I definitely learned new things with this trip to Mizzoula, Montana. Montana is beautiful. I got to drive and it was in the afternoon as we were making our way through beautiful Montana. I have never seen so many different places along the side of the road that were ideal for fly fishing. The mountains were breathtaking and they were surrounding. The cold was worth the trip for sure just to get to see and experience all that is Montana. The hotel we stayed at was better from previous years from what I understand but our room was a little questionable. We had no hot water, a broken lock on the door, and the fan in the bathroom would growl at you as you went to the bathroom. Also dust particles and some other kind of particle would fall down from the light every time you were in there. It was crazy. The shows were okay. We did have one jumper fall off but she was alright other than some crooked glasses and a sore body for the following week. I did okay in my shows. I felt like I could have ridden much better and I hate that feeling. I like succeeding and riding to the best of my ability. Something I learned in the following practice was horse control. I have been lacking on the horse control subject to this point because I have not ridden any horses that had any problems. But on my first horse I got for the show, since we were the first ones to ride, he did not want to slow down. I needed to learn how to hold a horse back and is something that I have now mastered thanks to Trixie, the teams paint horse that I got to ride. My second horse was part of a draft pair of horses and the other paired horse was in the same class being ridden so every time she got up right next to her partner she would slow down and fight me if I wanted her to move on. The last horse I had was great and I had a wonderful ride. Until some silly girl from another college would not stop riding right behind my horse. Etiquette at horse shows that if a horse has a red ribbon tied in the horses tail that means the horse kicks if you get behind it and my cute little pony had a red ribbon so when she kept riding right behind me and even though I tried to avoid her, my horse bucked. I almost ended up on the ground and then my horse was upset and kept backing up trying to kick more. She would not move forward and that hurt my chances I feel a little because I had a great ride before and even after the incident. Some judges will judge on the horses performance as well. It was a fun trip though and I really enjoy everyone that is on the team. We all have fun and they are all really great to be around. I have made some fun and excellent friends and I am so glad I decided to join the team.

The holidays are coming up and it will be so much fun. Since Thanksgiving is next week I do not have school on Wednesday through Friday. I get to spend time with my friend Brie and her kids on Wednesday and we are going to do crafts, get lunch, and just hang out which will be nice. I miss seeing her and her adorable family. She is so much fun to be around and I am happy she is going to be hanging out with me. Being in Logan is hard and I miss everyone so much. I get to spend Thanksgiving with my family and my grandma, aunt and uncle, and cousins will be coming down for Thanksgiving. It will so much fun to see and hang out with Grandma, Pat, Bryce, Nick, and Andrea. I am excited too because it will be the first time that Darcy will be cooking for us. Well we are all bringing something and I am not sure what Darcy has left to cook but it will be great. I am looking forward to the end of the semester and it should be a good one.

Well once I have photo shop back on the laptop I will post some cool pictures of the jumpers at the show.

 A weekend ago Bryan and I got the opportunity to go up to Blackfoot, ID and shadow the ranch owner, Rance Butler. Rance is a beef cattle owner who makes his living off of the cattle he raises, breeds, and cares for. My aunt Pat is friends with Rance and organized the whole trip for us to go. I got to ride Weezie my aunt's horse. The trip we got to go on was a trip up to the reservation land that is just outside of Blackfoot. Rance was pushing the cattle from the reservation land that he pays to have his cattle on for the summer to his land in Blackfoot. We first got on the horses and rode through the land sweeping for any cattle that had gotten missed from the day before ride. We then pushed the cattle down to the road and to a corral just off the road. The cows were actually mixed with another ranch owners cattle and so while the cows were in the corral they went through and separated the cattle. They then drove the cattle further down the road to more land that Rance was leasing. After we drove the cattle from the hills I actually joined Bryan in the truck since the horse I was riding was a little hyped up and my aunt Pat needed to ride her down. We then went home and had dinner and slept. We really did not get a lot of sleep so it was nice to go to bed early and sleep in late the next day. We then had some excellent breakfast at Stan's and it was oh so good. It was two big scones, 5 pieces of bacon, hashbrowns, and two eggs. It was so good. We then came home after getting a call that the dogs had gotten out of the yard again. It was a great trip for sure.

Well have not blogged as soon as I wanted to this week but it has been a crazy week. Monday had an assignment due so I got up at 7:00 am and spent the whole day at the school until 8:30 pm with classes, research, and getting the assignment done and turned in. Tuesday I got to sleep in a little because I took an exam last week so that I would not have to take it this week. But the day did not end early, instead it went straight from 12:30 pm to 10:30 pm. I had classes until 4:30 pm and then dashed like a mad woman to riding practice at where I got to be a part of the group that had to stay late and wait for the horses that we rode for practice to cool down. Since it is cold outside we cannot just ride them and then let them out into their outside stalls. But instead we have to keep them inside the area until they completely cool down before turning them out. Wednesday I had class all day, went straight to work, and then I came straight back to the school for a review session for the Organic Chemistry test I had today. This is some confusing stuff for sure. Which then I got home about 9:30 pm and started studying for the midterm exam that I had in Animal Science on Thursday. I got up at 6:30 am to study for the midterm, went to classes and took the midterm, stayed after my last class to attend another review session for the organic chemistry test and went home to study more and more for the organic chemistry test. It is crazy how much studying it took to get prepared for the exam. I even got up at 6:30 am again today to study before going in for the test. I still do not feel like I was completely prepared but I felt like I did alright on both exams. I will have to find out for sure before feeling too good about it.

Last weekend was a total blast for sure. I got some pictures and I will have to post them later because I do not have my camera with me at this time but I got to go to Idaho and ride with my Aunt Pat and her friend Rance Butler. I got to follow Rance around and asked him all sorts of questions. I got to ride Weezie, my Aunt's paint horse, and after a while I ended sitting in the truck with Bryan and my Aunt rode Weezie for a while. It was so much fun and so cool to get to ask and apply questions to everything that I have learned already. I have learned so much from my animal dairy and vet science classes that I have got to take this semester and it was interesting to see it applied in real life and see some of the hands on. I really want to go into bovine (cow) science. I have changed from horses just because I love horses but I have fallen in love with cattle too. I think they are so interesting and complicated. It is crazy to think of all the processes that take place in a cows place and I would love to get to work with these gentle beasts. Bryan got to come with me as well and it was great to have him there. I love getting to spend any time that I can with him. I am excited to see him again this weekend. I only have two more classes today before I get to drive home, see Bryan, see my doggies, and hopefully maybe get some work done in the back yard.

I found some photos that I had taken recently of Gretchen. I really miss her while I have been here in Logan. I miss her sweet personality and her feisty side as well. She is so cute and I love her to death.

4 years ago today, I remember it well. It was a day that changed my life for the better. I awoke early (3:30 am early) to take a short drive to Magna, a basement of a home where one Hollie Ellis spent close to two hours curling, pinning, and using massive amounts of hairspray on my hair. After finishing with the glamoring of my hair, I headed back home to complete a huge list that I had made the night before. I finished packing, made some necklaces for some special ladies, had breakfast, made sure I had money, passports, tickets, itinerary, spent about 45 minutes having my eyebrows plucked by my loving cousin Laura, got my dress, shoes, jewelry, and so much more together in one spot. Soon my girls having their hair finished and arriving we started to load everyone in the cars. It was already 1:15 pm at this time and the morning went by so quickly. At this point I had one had two basted eggs and a few sips of orange juice. We loaded into Megan's car and made our way towards the capital. We arrived just in time to run around the back of the church and hide while they tried to open the church. That is right. We could not get the church open and we had to wait about 20 minutes before we could get it opened. We then made the frantic dance of chaos to get every girl into her dress, makeup on, and shoes buckled. They then all focused on getting me into my dress which did not take long. Makeup applied, veil in place, and flowers in hand I was ready. We walked around to the front of the church and lined up. The procession started and all the ladies and gentleman started their walk down the aisle. My dad met me at the door of the church, I took his arm and we headed down the aisle, giggling at our terrible rhythm and walking in unison skills. There he stood at the front of the church and he was the only thing I remember seeing. I did not even notice the decorations, or even the other people there (sorry no offense). All I saw was Bryan and he was there. He wanted to be with me as much as I wanted to be with him. I choked back the tears and took some deep breaths as we took each others hands and said our I dos. It was wonderful. Since then life may not always be perfect but it is so worth living now that Bryan is by my side and always in my heart. I do not remember a whole lot after that I just mainly remember everything leading up to the moment that we both committed to one another and the past four years have seemed a blur. I love Bryan and all that he is. He has his imperfections just as I do but I love him for his personality, smile, and imperfections. He makes me feel that life is complete and my soul is no longer searching for something missing. Nothing is missing.
        The only thing that is missing today, is Bryan. He is in Salt Lake while I am in Logan today. It sucks to be away from him on our anniversary. I miss him like mad while I am here and there is not enough time when we are together. So happy four years to my hubby, snuggle bug, and pumpkin bear. Here is to the next four years and hopefully they are as memorable as the time we have already spent together. I love you so much for everything that you are, what you stand for, and how well you treat me. I know we can weather any storm. If I know what love is, it is because of you.

The day our lives were completed.

Bryan and I had a great weekend. We got to go up to Blackfoot, ID for the Easter Idaho State Fair. It was so much fun. Friday afternoon Bryan drove up and picked me up from school before we headed to Idaho. We went to my grandma's where we had some excellent salmon, potatoes and green peas, Grandma's infamous rolls, and fried okra. It was so yummy! I also got to go for a short horse ride as well down a small lane on old Black Jack with my aunt Pat. It was fun. We called it an early night for the next's days festivities. We got up early and headed to the fair. We watched the barrel racing, the pole racing, and the costume contest for the horses. It was so much fun to see the creativity that each owner put into their horse. There was a horse that was dressed as the big bad wolf and two cute little girls on the horse dressed as little piggies and their mom leading the horse, was dressed as a piggy as well. They all were carrying a different thing such as the bundle of sticks, some hay, and some bricks. One team had a donkey, dressed their kid as puss in boots, and then mom and dad dressed as Princess Fiona and Shrek. It was awesome. The winner of the contest my aunt Pat actually knew and they did a great job. They dressed their little boy in camo and so did the dad. The horse they took camo tent covering and covered the horse and put cat tails and weeds in it to camoflauge the horse. It was so cool.
      After all the events with the horses we went and actually got to see the horse races. I even bet on a few of the ponies. I did not win anything but it was fun and I learned some new things. It was so intense to see the horses racing down the raceway. It was fun and new. We also got to see the indian relay races. It is were they race their horses a full 5 furlongs but they do it bareback. It was insane. The girl that won was full dead running her horse. I could not believe she even stayed on. It was different but very exciting to watch.
      After that we went and took it easy at Grandma's house before going to the demolition derby that night. We ended up meeting up with Rich, my cousin, and watched the derby with him. I have to admit it was not as good as it has been in past years. There was not a lot of hard hits and it was so long inbetween each heat that it kind of got boring. We then went to Grandma's again for some home made oooo so yummy ice cream. It was so good. Some of the best ice cream I have ever had. We then went back to Aunt Pat's house for the night. We got a little late and then talked with Aunt Pat until it was time to head out. We stopped and said goodbye to Grandma and stopped in Pocatello to have lunch with Nick, Andrea, and Rich before Bryan dropped me back off in Logan and heading back home.
        It was a great weekend but really seemed too short. I love spending time with Bryan and there does not seem to be enough hours in the day when we are together but too many when we are apart. I am again counting down the days until I see him again this weekend.

        Well the three day weekend went by way too fast for sure. It was so nice to get to go home after the first week at school. Classes are finally starting to get a little more interesting and I really am liking the animal dairy and veterinary science classes the best (abb. ADVS). They are just different from what I am used to and it so much fun to get to actually discuss cattle, horses, swine, sheep and all the different aspects that are involved in them and how it affects the economy and the country as a whole. It is crazy but the United States has the least amount of active members in agriculture in the world. That just seems insane to me. For the weekend I got to go to dinner Friday night with my parents and Bryan's aunts, Roxie and Suzie, and Uncle Lee. My parents are going on an Alaskan cruise and they had to meet with everyone going to get itineraries and information for the big trip. My parents actually leave next week and are gone for two weeks. I think they will enjoy the trip though and it should be fun for them. They do not get to go do things as a couple very often so I am excited for them. Plus they always bring back excellent souvenirs. Then on Saturday we got up and went to the Annual Sheepdog Competition at Soldier Hollow. It was such a good time. We got to see these amazing and well trained dogs run sheep down the mountain side and through gates and back up and back down then seperate the sheep before putting them in a pen. They had to do this without the owners help and the owner could only make calls from a post at the bottom of the hill. We also got to see the jumping/diving dogs and their amazing skills at jumping into the pool. It is crazy how far they could get with each leap. I cannot even come close to jumping that far. We also got to see some demonstrations which were really fun. We saw sled dogs (Alaskan Malamutes) and how they are hooked up to sleds and the commands they get to hear. We also saw a demonstration from the Sandy Police K-9 Unit. It was so cool and it is amazing how great these dogs are and commands they are given. I thought it was so cool how the main purpose and objective of the dog is to protect the officer. They would have the dog pursue a bad guy and then pretend to attack the officer and the dog was twice as fast running back to the officer than pursuing the bad guy. It was a lot of fun. Sunday was the usual, sleep in, go to mom and dad's for dinner and True Blood followed by games. A great Sunday for sure. Then Monday due to the holiday, my mom and I got to go out to Vista Farms again and ride for another hour. We both got to canter this time which was great. We also got to ride on two new horses. I got Scottie and mom got to ride Beau. It was a blast. I miss riding horses so much and I am so glad and priviledged to get to ride again.
         Well the week is already moving at the rate of a snail but at least I am half way to getting to see Bryan again. Bryan is meeting me up here on Friday and we are then driving the rest of the way to Blackfoot, ID for the State Fair and some fun time. Bryan and I enjoyed it so much the last time we went we decided we needed to go again. There will be a demolition derby, fair food, animals and a barn dance to follow. My aunt Pat wants to take me riding as well so that will be interesting. I am excited for the fun filled weekend ahead and hopefully remember to take a camera this time and get some photos of our adventures.

Dear Mom and Dad,
What can I say? You are the best parents and I would not trade you for the world. You mean so much to me. I love you so much. I know that as a child I was not always easy to handle and pushed you to the very brink of insanity. That makes you even more amazing. You have withstood me over the years and all that is Brittney. You shared so much with me and somethings not too great to share. My sarcasm, my drama, my pain, my medical issues, my passions, my loves, my worries, my happiness, my peace, my joy, and my laughter. I could never ask for better parents. If it were not for you both, I would not be able to pursue my dreams and desires. You help me keep my head above the water that at times seem to be drowning me. You are always there for Darcy and I. I can talk with either one of you free from persecution. I share with you my deepest thoughts, worries, and hopes and dreams. Mom, we may not have been super close as I went through the teenage nightmare years. But you were great. You did not let me stray from what is good and right and you helped me through some of the toughest years of my life thus far. You are wonderful to talk to and you are such an amazing woman and mother, I can only hope to be as great as you are someday when I have children. There are false idols in this world that many would idolize. But I idolize you. Your strength, your beauty, your love that makes you, you. I love you so much and I love that you are my mother. Dad, we share a bond of humor and laughter that has kept me hopeful and optimistic for years. I apply your saying of "Don't worry, the poop will fall out," to my daily life and it has helped me through hard times. You show me strength and hope with your attitude and grace. You are a wonderful man and father and I love that you are my dad.
I realize that someday, you will not be here and that time is an ever creeping monster ready to snatch you from me someday. I will be lost without you both. I do not even know what to think that life would be like without you both. I cannot see a world without you both in it. The years have been so wonderful with you both. I love the love, passion, and devotion that you have put into your daughters and we are grateful. I cannot express in enough words how much I love you both and how grateful I am for all that you do and the life you have provided for me. It may taken me a few years, but I now see how wonderful you are. It is true what they say about not appreciating your parents when you are young. But now that I have grown and matured, I can say that I see now all that you have done for me, and I thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for being yourselves, and thank you for being my parents.

Brittney

So, I am not one to usually share these types of experiences but tonight was something so amazing that I have never felt before. I admit that due to the stresses of planning to go to school and leaving my love, family, home and dogs has not been an easy thing for me to do. I must admit I am not very strong when it comes to dealing with a hard situation when dealing with those I love and hold dear. I have never been good at losing those I love and still have a hard time dealing with these things. I have been badly depressed this past two weeks thinking through all that is about to happen and how it is such a big change and not an easy one either. I hate the thought of being away from Bryan so much. We have been inseparable ever since dating and the past almost 4 years of marriage may have had its rough patches but everyday I feel closer and more in love with such a wonderful man. Each night usually after making sure Bryan has food and I am back home I usual want to do something. Sew, clean, or homework. Nothing has been getting done this week at all. This evening seemed worse than others. The fact that someone has been saying things to Bryan behind my back about me and questioning my motives of going to school and that it is all a front to find someone else and get a divorce as soon as I go to school has not been a helpful fact with the crazy wave of sadness that has been following me lately and has seemed to make things worse for me today. I sleep a lot when I am depressed and after a cancelled hair appointment this evening, I went and slept for about three hours tonight. I am not one to do this in a regular evening and it is something I have not done since high school. I felt like poo when I woke up and kind of slothed around the house for another hour or two. I was laying in bed, watching a television show when it all over came me and I just started crying. Something I do not want to admit willingly. I do not like crying and it is one thing I feel is a weakness for me when I am vulnerable. I felt the sudden urge to get on my knees and pray. I cried out my prayers with tear filled eyes, admitting every fear out loud, expressing my concern for Bryan and I and how I feel that he is the one that I want to be with in this life and the next. I want to walk next to God in the next world with Bryan's hand in mine and feel that love for time and all eternity. Tears streamed down my face as I asked for the Lord's strength to help me and help ease my fears and help me to be strong enough to be away from my love, family, home, and dogs. (Cannot forget my pets, they are a big part of my life and the love I feel for them.) Also to give me strength to ignore the lies being said about me and that I had the strength to be the better person. As I sat there, on my knees, in fear for what is right for me to do and my concerns for Bryan and whether or not we can weather the storm about to happen, I had an amazing feeling of ease. I sat there for minutes just taking in the feeling that filled my body. The tears stopped, and all I could say was "Thank you, Lord." My fears have been placed to ease and I feel for the first time in a while that all is well and all is what it is meant to be. This was something too amazing not to share. I do not wish to offend any that may not feel that God is not real or religious out reach in a time of turmoil is foolish, but there is no denying what I felt this evening. He was with me, and still is. I can feel that even when I start to think about it all a sense of strength and love that could weather any storm. I know that the Lord is with me and watching over me and He cares for Bryan and I. I know that going to school is right and that I am meant to be a vet and be a loving and caring wife to a wonderful man. Bryan has supported me non stop for me to go to school and go after what I really want and need in my life. He has never once tried to hold be back and he has even thanked me for inspiration in finding out what he wanted to be and to go after his own dreams. So here we are. Living our dreams with love in our hearts and the Lord to watch over us and be with us through it all. I love my life, my loved ones, the things I have to cherish, that I even have all these things, and I love my Lord.

The above picture is my family, Campbell's. We are a small tight nit little family. My mom (in the white shirt) is the most amazing woman I have ever met and hope that I can be at least half the mother and woman that she is. My dad, in the dark blue shirt, is the funniest most loving man I have ever met. He loves my mom so much and is easy going. My mom and dad met while they were in college, got married, and waited about ten years before deciding to have my sister (the skinny one in the black tank top). Four years later I came along. Danny, my sister's husband (the one hugging on her), met my sister when they were in elementary school together and then found each other years later only to rekindle the love connection from younger years. Bryan, (red shirted guy I am hugging one) is my loving husband who I love spending time with. He is my monkey and I love him so much.



The above photo is Bryan and I with Darcy and Danny before going on the grueling overnight Narrows hike in Zions park. My sister and I are the best of sisters. I love my sister and how amazing of a woman she is. I have always loved hanging out with her. Danny and her are hoping to start another little family of their own soon and are trying to get pregnant. Exciting for all because my parents want grandchildren, I want to be an aunt (Rock On!), and my sister is ready to be a mommy.



The above picture is Bryan and I with his family, the Austins. There is Don, Bryan's dad (the man in the back), Jolee his mother (the woman sitting in pink), and Amber his sister (the one wearing a teal shirt with the black over wrap). We get to go do all sorts of things with the Austins and they are fun to hang out with. Jolee and Don were high school sweethearts who after getting married, tried and tried and got blessed Bryan and a short year after were blessed with Amber as well. They are good people and we enjoy getting to be a part of the family.

Bryan and I have been so lucky to be able to be a part of such great families and receive the amazing love that we do receive every day. We are so blessed to have such loving and caring people that surround us and people we can count on through thick and thin.

Dear KC Bolen,
I really must admit that the other night really hurt my feelings with what you said to me and how you treated our invite to come and hang out. We did not want to make a big deal and have some fun food, see the kids, and I really wanted to chat with Francie since I am concerned for her right now. I am afraid you are not treating her right and that is not okay. She is such a wonderful woman and great friend. I love her so much and have known her for so long. She cares so much for those around her that she puts others in front of her own happiness. I could hear it in her voice the other day on the phone that she is in distress mode and she is not her usual happy glowing self. I am afraid you are taking advantage of her and you definitely took advantage of us the other night. Bringing someone else over to our house that we did not know and did not know you were bringing really made us feel awkward. Also, then expecting us to feed this person too made me really uncomfortable. I did not really care so much that you brought someone, in fact he was rather nice and we did not have a problem with the person themself, it was the fact you did not tell us or call us before. And totally blind siding Francie with that as well, no cool in my book.
What you said to me hurt the most. As we sat there, just relaxing and hanging out, after all that we put up with you that night, you insult us with what Bryan and I feel is the right way to go about starting a family and telling me that I am wrong not to want to be a stay at home mom. I do not have a problem with stay at home moms at all. I feel that if you want to stay home with your children you should do what you want in what you feel is best. I myself do not feel this way. I was raised in a home that both my parents worked and my sister and I never once felt distant or neglected by our parents. We realize this was no easy task for them to do and realize that it takes a lot of work but this something that both of us feel very passionate about. I do not have the necessary personality to be a stay at home mom either. I am too stir crazy to stay at home and I want to be a veterinarian. My mother was able to do it and do it well, so what makes you think that you have the right to say that moms that do not stay at home are not good mothers. I do not think it is wise for Bryan and I to have children right now when our financial situation is not very stable and not only that once you have children, things change dramatically. We want to be a couple more before starting our family. We want children and we both want them now but do not feel it would be a responsible choice right now for us. We want to be able to provide for our children in everyway and we are not going to be pressured into children either. Why no one seems to respect that fact and just pushes for us to jump into children, I will never understand. Yeah, it is a sensitive subject for me because we really want children like right now but we are trying to be responsible in deciding when to have children.

Brittney

Double post. Sorry forgot to post yesterday.

Day 10: Songs you Listen to When you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

This one is a little hard considering the fact that I love so many different types of music. When I am happy I definitely listen to different up beat songs such as country songs Country Girl (Shake it for me) and Honey Bee right now. I do love the new songs that come out all the time but some classics are great too like Devil Went Down to Georgia and pretty much anything by Shania Twain. Been a fan of Shania Twain since I was little. When I am sad, more the slower, more depressing songs in a way which would seem to be the opposite of what someone who is sad would want to see but I kind of listen to music based on mood. I like different modern songs such as What do you Want and When Summer Comes Around or When it Rains or If I Die Young . When I am bored, I really listen to all music and no specific songs in particular and I love all sorts of music. Hyped there are only a few songs I listen to. Michael Jackson's Thriller is a big one for me and I love to dance around while listening to it and really get moving. When I am mad, music is not something I listen to. When I get mad, I am mad and I only think of what is making me mad usually.

Day 11: Another Picture of You and Your Friends

Well, I still have not been able to find any photos that I have of us with our friends. I am having issues finding them on my computer because I cannot remember what I saved them under. I will post them though as soon as I find them.